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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 04:17

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I have no regrets .

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Who then, do I blame.?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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I waited trembling.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Where's the Civil War everyone on the left said would happen?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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It was going to be , some day.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

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He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He knew the spot.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

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We all went to grammer schools

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Can people who have never met you tell if you are a covert narcissist?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I couldn’t, believe it.

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She found it foreign!.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

All the time i was locked up.

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

So whats the point in blame.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But ive been too sick for many years..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

My family never makes their pension either.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

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I write beautiful poetry .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

(And it was in our own minds.)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I think the readers, may guess!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Ive learnt so much.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I don,t even have a pension.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was 9 years of age.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I could never make a relationship work though!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Was to survive, this bastard.

But, we were locked up after school.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She wouldn,t have been !

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

We were not on the streets..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Put me off passion for life!!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

So, i spoilt her more .

Comes on , in middle age.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

She married twice! .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Im still living with it.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

What did i know ?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She loved him until the end.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was scared of men, in general

I was very sick at this time too.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

This is soul school!.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

When she asked me how she looked .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Would this be the day?

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Especially a lifetime of it.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One cannot live in the past .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

As i do to all so called friends.?

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

My life is so biszare .

Why did i forgive my father ?

But it wasn’t much.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

He resisted the act ,that day.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I never cut or harmed myself..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

She was in good health!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I will be 64.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was seconnd youngest,

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And i lived it daily.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I said to her

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

And who doesn’t know suffering?